A Little Bewildered

                                                Like I said, this week has been very discouraging for many people I know.  The only bright spots are the bits of good news for my family and I but for my neighbor, it hasn't been good.                                                 She lives all alone with health problems, one of which is depression, which she takes Prozac for.  Prozac was the first anti-depressant I was on but soon upgraded to Zoloft, I wonder if her medicines need changed?     I  take Paxil going on seven years now
                 Widowed for almost nineteen years her son now twenty three, seems to have no-time to help her out because of his job and that discourages her.  Like many, she is on a fixed income and struggling to survive.  Like me, she has had a long history working in retail, grocery mainly and even once for The Red Cross.  For someone who has helped so many, seems as though no help has afforded her.   My heart goes out for her.
                                                Today I took her to "Delaware Community Action" so she could get help  with her electric bill at AEP, facing shut-off tomorrow, but she had to come up with more money than what she had in order for them to put her on PIP, of course she didn't have it, nor could I help her.  She was in tears and upset with "The System", all they would offer her was a form to be filled out by her doctor so she could get a box fan.......What in the world....how was this supposed to help if her electric was due to be shut-off?    I wish I understood that one.    On the way back home, she told me when she worked for Red Cross , many immigrants were given free bank accounts, free businesses and free housing for just coming into the country.  Its so discouraging,especially when we have the problems we face today.
                                               I see so many selling and moving away from here because they can't afford to live here anymore.  I think about how that might be me in the near future, just struggling to live.  So many things she has said that make me worry about her welfare.  What is even more scary are the ones who pray upon those like her and me.
                                              It used to be that a person could trust a compassionate neighbor with the understanding of the same troubles and hardships.  What I learned today from what she has told me about some of the neighbors here, make me shutter.   I have grumbled about these two men before and I pray that what I fear isn't true.   I think she trusts these two too much to even talk to them.  Another reason I steer clear of these men.  Granted, these guys drink too much for their own good, so one might have to take their words with a grain of salt...even so.
                                            She said, she had known them a while, so she went down to talk to the one to see if she could get some help.  They knew that she may be moving out as well and wanted to know if she was just going to scrap her single wide mobile home out...right.  Of course she wouldn't and couldn't. I get the impression that they would help her IF she would do a favor for them.....well I can give you a few guesses on what that was...needless to say it was dirty...
                                            Like I said, I hope I'm wrong, at any rate it's upsetting...all I can say is this..they better keep their distance away from my kids and I
                                           If I could, I would like to ask for prayers for her, that things will get better for her and that God will keep her safe and that His light and mercy will flow through her life.