Suffering from Anxiety and Depression can be really draining on me going it alone sometimes. My kids are at the age where they do their own things and well, hanging out with mom is boring. I knew that day was coming but sometimes we do, do things together which are fun . Like watching favorite movies , going over to their grandparents (My folks). Walking on the Dam or just sharing a joke or two. Gosh, this year I will be going to turn 48, eight years without a spouse. Sometimes I enjoy my times alone, doing artwork or just relaxing , enjoying the outside air but mainly it can be lonely and well just emotionally draining, especially with the years going by. Finding a job isn't fun either and keeping it with these troubles on top of hearing loss, some forgetfulness and sensitivity makes it really a struggle to keep and support yourself. The toughest is keeping up with encouragement when days go bad and I feel like a failure.
I am hoping someday that some kind man (He Knows Who He Is) will just help me strengthen my weaknesses. I do not like asking for help or asking a man to take care of me, it just sounds selfish to me, encouragement goes a long way with love, hand and hand. Just having a companion would be the most wonderful blessing of all! I Do Love Him, where ever he is today..
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