No body knew how to help me, the "quick fix " didn't work. I needed to talk it out so my sister talked me into joining a grief support group. Grief was just part of my trouble, Depression anxiety and panic attacks plagued me as well and getting over the first "Mountain Of Pain" wasn't so easy. I looked for ways to ease my suffering. I turned to books, bought favorite movies for the kids and I and vegetated in front of the Television or napped on the couch. Then I decided to try "The Midwest Center Of Depression And Anxiety" still something inside never seemed to let me heal. Going off my anti-depression medicine in December of 2006, only added to my troubles.
Many care providers kinda shook their head at me and only upped my anti-depression Medication, well that made it worse. I kept praying for help because by the time I was really down and out, no one else wanted to help and I was left very few options. To make a long story short, God did answer my prayer and gave me physicians willing to take a look at my problems and then I was blessed with a very special friend who showed me that life and love wasn't over for me, even though I wanted to give up. He is indeed a very special man to me and will remain that way for the rest of my life, even though he's many miles away in Massachusetts. I love him dearly and I always will.
Many times when I have had a rough day, maybe something reminds me of the past or if I even get discouraged. I know God is with me, He's the greatest of all. I owe everything I am to Him. He has blessed me so much even when I don't think I deserve it. Russ Taft recorded a song in 1989, that has been my "Strengthening Song" I play. I want to share it with you.
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