The Worry Mode

Sometimes I wish there was a switch to shut off the "Worry" we all experience within ourselves.  With me I think the switch would get worn out real quick.  I always find such great comfort in the words of "Christ" , he said in essence  "Which one of you can add one more day to his or her life by worrying"  and its true.
More often than not, it causes us to waste precious thought patterns.   I am so guilty of it.  As the only parent , it is easy to do, as it is with all parents, no matter what age especially with a daughter suffering from an eating disorder such as anorexia.

Anorexia weakens the heart muscle and robs organs of vital nutrients.  The body basically turns on itself, so every moment of the day, I worry if she is eating what she is suppose to.  Her nutritionist printed out for me a meal plan to help keep track of what she is taking in.  This is a very helpful tool.

During the course of the night, I find myself walking back to my daughter's room and checking on her. It makes me so upset as she lays on her side and her hip-bone sticks out.  When everyday always starts out with a worry mode, how does it shut off ?   I always ask myself    "Am I doing everything right ? "  "Am I doing all I can to help?"  sometimes trusting is so difficult.  The best way to describe it is a person blindfolded guided by a hand of a person who sees.  You just go through the motions, taking a step, one foot at a time.

I am fearful of her future, my hope is that despite all the possible harm she may have done to her body, that she will live a full life and achieves all she dreams of!